We are really sorry about your lose but you don't go around telling strangers what they don't need to know, that's just the only reason we can withdraw our "really" and leave you with "sorry" since you really crave for a "Sorry Life". We all have what we don't have and it's better left unsaid. The only reason you think they are perfect is because they are trying to be perfect, they can't tell what isn't there or what they have lost either.
You can't stop trying to have it till you have it. Don't open up to people to that extent you can't close up.